As many people know, I don’t like to hold back on what’s going on in my life, especially in hopes that it helps someone else out in their own life.
On a previous post I talked about how I fell into a deep depression. It covered me up like a dark cloud, that even the brightest sun couldn’t penetrate through. All I wanted was light to come back into my life but I just felt stuck.
I had a great career in real estate, a beautiful wife, a relationship with our savior Jesus and an amazing family. What the heck was wrong with me!?!?
The only thing that would let me escape from my dark cloud was fly fishing with my wife, friends and family. It was the one place I was able get away from suicidal thoughts and feelings of hopelessness. It was a place of comfort and finally a little peace from my destructive thoughts.
I knew it was just an escape and didn’t solve anything but it’s what I needed to survive at the time.
So let’s fast forward to the present and talk about getting that light back :). Well it’s been one year since my darkest days and let’s just say I am alive again. It took a lot of work and taking big steps but I am the happiest I have been since the depression cloud hit me like a ton of bricks.
Steps I took to get out of my depression:
1. Go get some medical help.
I was so against going to the doctor at first. It made me feel weak inside. It was the worst thing I could of tricked my self into believing. I needed medicine and needed medicine fast. My doctor prescribed me lexapro for my everyday medicine and Klonopin for when I had anxiety attacks. It didn’t feel like it was working at all but with time it started working great. So don’t give up on it because you don’t get instant gratification. Don’t stop taking it just because you feel better. I did this mistake and I started to fall back into the sickness of depression.
2. Follow your dreams and find away to make money at it.
I started to think about other people more than myself. What was I doing when people around me felt the most alive???? I was taking them fly fishing! Getting them outside! Finding a refuge for their everyday stressful days.
That’s when I decided I wanted to be a fly fishing guide. Not the typical guide but an outstanding guide that would give my clients an amazing break from their everyday life. A guide that would listen to their life story,love on them and most of all serve them with all I have inside of me.
I would share the overflowing, abundant love, of what God was blessing me with and give that to my clients. I will be an extension of God’s grace, Love, and listening ear to the people I was guiding for that day. Not to only be their guide for the day but to develop an everlasting friendship.
I pray for my clients everyday without even knowing them. I pray for their day to be wonderful in a way that they wouldn’t of even imagined. I pray for their needs of the day to come way before mine.
I am finally in a career that I know I am supposed to be doing and I feel alive when I wake up in the morning.
3. Fix the things in your life that make you stressed.
Let’s be completely honest with each other. We all have bad habits and seem to repeat them. Really work on the things that make you stressed and fix them. One of the things that I repeat over and over again that stresses me out is trying to please everyone. By pleasing everyone you aren’t helping anyone. I had to learn to say no and learn to stand up for myself. This has helped me a lot in knowing who I really am and love the person I am. If you know something is wrong, speak up and educate the world. It also helps with knowing your true friends because they stand by you no matter what.
4. Stay active and connect with great people regularly.
This one is really hard when you are depressed. All you want to do is be alone and that is the worst thing you can do. Try to push yourself into a new or old healthy hobby. Connect with friends on a daily basis. Don’t get into watching TV, Jealously, or comparing your life to others on facebook or any other social media platform. Go outside and feel the sun rays, the wind and the sounds of this world. It will make you feel way more alive than staying inside listening to your negative thoughts.
5. Be honest with your family about what’s going on and keep in constant contact with people you look up to.
The quicker you can bite your depression in the butt, the better! The longer it goes on it will be harder to break out of. Let your family, spouse, or friends know what’s going on and lean on them for support. Nobody that truly loves you wants you to suffer with depression. They will help you get through it and hopefully be understanding.
My grandparents are a huge inspiration to me and I would lean on them for inspiration on a daily basis. They have been married for 58 years and I wish that on my marriage everyday! They are great people for me to talk to when I’m feeling down. They instantly pick my spirits up with their loving and caring hearts towards me.
I really hope this post is an inspiration to someone out there. Know that you don’t have to be stuck in the dark cloud and their is a way out. I pray for your recovery and hope the very best for your life.
Thanks for following my life and I am so grateful for your love and support.